things that i have learned about life: 1)if you keep your focus on whats most important, everything else will fall into place-if you lose that focus, everything will be lost. 2)take time every day to feel alive. notice the sun the sky the beauty of life. laugh with friends. do whatever it takes to make u feel alive. 3)the root of all anger is pain-so before you spaz out on someone, focus on the root of your frustration 4)take accountability for yourself-you are in charge of your own life!(dont blame your attitude on that time when u were two and ur father punished you unfairly. dont blame your actions on the amount of drugs or drinks you consume.lol.) just recognize things will affect you but u are ultimately accountable for all you do(which brings me to the next point) 6)dont fight or argue with people when your under the influence.half the time youll wake up the next day and realize the stupidity of it all.lol.(which brings me to the next point) 6)learn to say sorry-if your not forgiven, even if the person still hates you, anger is something that they will deal with everyday. if you've made right what you've done, than your concious can be clean. 7)equality-you are better than noone and noone is better than you-anyone who tells you differently is selling you something. 8)love like it doesnt hurt-everyones had their heart broken, but if that stops you from ever loving again, than you're losing out. 9)be honest-even if ppl hate you for it. think about it....its better to be upfront and honest than to shit talk backstab or lie.lol 10)its ok to be sad. but every time you're sad about what has been lost, think how lucky you are to have even had it at all. many ppl that we love pass on and were often so angry or sad we forget to think what a priviledge it was to have known them at all.
its official. im cutting back on drinking. i get drunk way too much and feel way too sick bc im an easy drunk.lol. this is the second time ive attemped the cut back. the first time was sucessful. i dindt drink for 4 mos. this time im not completely stopping im just not doing it every weekend.lol. and im not even excited for my 19th nemore. this is gay.:(
whether tis nobler to transfer to Wilfred Laurier.....or to travel the world during the summer months if i stay at home. I cant do both. If i stay, i travel, if i go, im where i want to be. school lately has been TONS better plus almost my bday JOY. and my dads telling me like for sure were moving in three years and that ill have to stay in windsor. and im like ur rude cus two weeks ago u told me i cudnt go away and now hes all like 'yea well i wudnt mind if u transfered' and such. (pft as if he wudnt die of boredom without me)LOL but where he wants to move is closer to waterloo. i thiunk thats why. i gtg clean/date tnite.YAAAY bvye
so tnite this cop comes in all like funni. and then he gets his sub and says "wut time do u get off work" and im like akward "12 30 " and hes like aww well ill circle round the lot at 12 20 to make sure all is welll. and im lik aww cus i close alone so if u ever want to rob me u know. so k then he takes his reciept and goes "heres my number...call me sumtime" and on the receipt is 9-1-1!!! LMFAO I NEARLY DIED i started laughin sooo hard. and hes like "only if u need nething"LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. so ok then last nite. kels was driving sara to brews n cues. and im there all like yea! and her car randomly stalls out sometimes. like u can feel it jerk and than if u stop....itll stop....and just stay there.lol. and so we comes to a rolling stop at the interesction of bouffard and matchette and then same with reaume cus u can feel the car starting to go. and then we see flashing lites.lol. like mother of god. and so im like holy mother. and the guy was a cock. hes like "oh ur drivin her to brews and cues?? ooo does she work there??NO?!! just going to have a good time yea?!?! THOUGHT SO" like all gya.lol and then hes like "WHY DO U STILL HAVE UR TEMP LISENCE" cus kels forgot. and then hes like i cud fine u 500 plus 120 blabblabla. and then hes like "well i dont fgeel like doing ppr work (*aka....i didnt EXACTLY see enough to ticket u.) my dads best firend fights tickets....hes an ex o.p.p. guy and he concurs cops use that line whent theres nothing they can do about it. and then 3/4 s of a mile down the road we came to a complete stop and guess what.....by complete stopp i mean COMPLETELY stopped. as in the caar stauled.lol!!! omg i was lauging sooo hard. im too tired to write nething else.lol but the bEST sub ever is chricken breast(not the chopped south west kind) and bacon and tripple cheese with lettuce. and cucumbers and pickles and my sauce(=southwest+terreaki+honey mustard+sub sauce= AMAZZZZING)LOL its good
k so jay first of all u cock sucker u drank my whole fucking flask of fireball but i spilled southren comgfdort on your carpet. BUT you thre upp in my bag u fuckvnug cocksucker. k so tnite was reducalously fun thanks kesl. im stoill really hammer.d n kyle i fucking drank u under the fucking table. hahah jaty u too. u both got sick on the floor. and i left. hahha. and dom im impreswsed. and HEY i got locked outta myhouse. and had to call my mom to let me in and i fell down the starios LLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLL i have vomite in m=y fucking suitcase you fucking bastarsds, bytes IO WORK TNITE AND I FUCKED UP THE BREAD SO BAD SHE SAVED IT TO SHOW ME . fguckign chinese cocksucker.
Today was so fun. we started the phil book. its PRO. i def want to drop my french romantism. Wayne isnt impressed but yea. i got grounded for coming in in the wee hours of the morning....although im effin 18. oh well i was with the boys. soooo worth it. neways. rachie i saw that crazy kid from psych we always talk to cus i sat in on kirst soc class vs. my french class. and he punched me in the face and said "i didnt know u had this class" well by punch i mean like tapped.lol. i love my exageratedness. and then this is the good part. he takes his shoes off and throws his sock feet up on the chair like he owns the place. and hes all "I DO OWN THE PLACE. I PAY THEM A MILLION DOLLARS A YEAR" k lol so psych class is too fun. the first notes i took all year???um. well they were notes to ppl and about ppl.lol. DINNERNESS
elsewhere being WLU. windsor SUCKS ASS. no offense. i love you al lbut CMON.lol WLU is amazing. plus id be roomies with my bestest girl. 24/7 party.lol. im off to bed.
today it occured to me. life is really gay sometimes. for those of you who didnt know mr. kwaz is like hardcore sick. so i was saddened. and my dad has pneumonia. i cried cus hes sooo sad to watch.lol. but really i think he might have to get hospitilized soon if he doesnt get better.and hes still awaiting on those effing test results. its strange that when i finally start to get along with my dad after years of constant fighting. and now he starts getting sick. another prime example of lifes stupidity.lol. my classes are a little better this semester. im actually excited for them. hardwork but still. i love ubadah hes sucha sweet heart. he made me feel so much btr today via msn.lol. thats talent. neways i bought madagascar and the little princess today. and a dvd for my dad. petticoat junction. which is one stupid show but hes bored and he loves it. tommorrow my mom and i are going to the mall. im excited actually because my time lately has been spent babysitting my father. shane made a new song and im lovin it.musical dj master;) alrite im le tired(even tho i slept in till 3 pm today) lol. i was up all ntie. but im off to bed in hopes of regaining a normal sleeping pattern.
Ok. First class. Not much to say. Second class same as last years psych. I yelled christine in class and he gave me dirty looks in front of 500 ppl. me and rachie had tons of fun mocking his old jokes. jay came to see kirst on her lunch break...and to sit in on her classes.for sum reason.lol. 3rd class with kirsten and perduck. interesting drawings from nick. Last class- the prof was on vacation in california so he sent another teacher in 45 mins late to hand out the outline and than to make us do a test on history. which if were marked on... everyone is fucked. its FRENCH class. not HISTORY class. fricker. neways i feel sick:| nite
start with friday. i see my gurl in waterloo. anastasia. i miss her more than nething in the world. so we have sooo much fun. go to the mall take the bus. about 7 pm we go to penders. i literally take in the course of 8 hours 12 shots of rum, 3 of vodka, a couple shots of rye and a shot of 75%. i cant even tell how much fun it was. we played drinking games. it was mad fun. then we went upstairs to this 3b rez party. and the hallways packed iwth ppl drinking and dancing.lol. so we got shots from sum guy i duno. then i passed out on the stairs for like 10 mins. then i get up and see ppl from CHRISTIAN CAMP;. and i cant remmeber what school i go to or what my major was. pender helped me out.lol we had soooo mcuh fun. then we go home at like 4 am.lol. the next nite. i got drink with anastasias roomy. have a shot of 50% and a few shots of rum. he later gave me the bottle .lol then we walk to mcDonalds. thru the drive thru.lol. and they loved us. i got free food from a cute black guy./ then we fricking walk home and see these guys body checking over "vote Conservative" signs. falling on their asses. amazing time. i saw narnia, it was nice but too long. never agin. good movie tho. then i cant even describe the trip to the mall. manekin pics, helmets, so fun. go to myspace. check out pics. I LEARNED POKER and i wonl ike amillion times. school starts tues mother effer.lol. im out
so yea i get to spend new years with my EFFIN grandparents as opposed to JH:( so amee this is my shout out to u from steve.as in weston. he wants to take us on a ride with his super-cool car.lol. so he wants to know if u wana go with me.lol. o mon dieu i am cold. and le tired. my fathers getting tested for a whole bunch of shit that im not too impressed with. stomach cancer being one of them. after dave im not impressed.:( neways ill be gone till the 1st visiting family. then i shall be gone 4-8 with friend visiting. steve lee helped me close subway today and he likes carrie underwood so were having a baby and it will be a musical computer genious. with blue eyes and steves skin.lol.
holy mother! k well lets start by the sadness. I HATE UNIVERSITY ITS NOT A PARTY. i don't like those friends who pick up bfs and ABANDON you and dont seem to care beyond a sry when you mention it. and i dont like the retarded amounts of work and stress and anxiety.im going CRWAZY! like omg. and sumth is def wrong with my dad....n he refuses to go to the dr:( so i look after him all the time. tnite we got in a fight cus he promised me he;d call the dr. and so i started calling him fibbs mgee!LOL. neways GOOD NEWS. jesssica hicks, hailey mcb and lacey kupkake! THEY CAME TO MY WORK AND VISITED ME. i literallt like was serving a customer and then like AHHHHHHHH OMGGGGGGGGG and i started screaming, runiing over giving them a hug, tearing.lol. and then the customer laughed.lol. as any one wud but still. so we threw ice around....down my shirt..... at haileys boob and jh's head. then we called kirsten.... she didnt want a visitation from the others.lol.jay mightve been jealous.lol.and then we talked and laughed our asses of bc hailey "spood fitter" spit cookie on jh and jh was crying GET IT OFF. cus literally it was EVERYWHERE.lol. it was classic. and so it was an amazing...almost like highschool acutally having fun-ness. i cant wait for school to be done. BAD NEWS im celbrating new years with my grandparnst*KICKS SELF* not by choice*cries* it was forced. and i miss the cocktail party.im seriously depressed
I'll set the scene. My french lit class. Teacher...tiniest thing you've ever seen. Gorgious but hair lika poodle. Very sweet, very innocent or so i thought!!! So were reading "La Lecon" n in one part it talks about this teacher. He kills this girl with a knife. Then the teacher tries to tell us that the knife is a metaphore for a penis. Very funny but i was SHOCKEd like omg from her mouth came these words. then she starts....of course she said this all in french "What gets hard during intercourse....cmon guys....it seems im talking to kindergardeners. you know this......male organ...the penis whatevr you like to call it. Then this part hes sweating. Why would he sweat......anyone?? because he's ejaculating. guys have to put a lot of effort into that. And the screaming? its not uncommon for partners to scream during periods of sexual excitement. The girl was being raped, so it was less of a pleasure scream but its not unusual." LIKE OMG TALK ABOUT AWWWWKWARD!!!LOL then lindsay was being hilarrrrrrious. "Wow. she looks so innocent. Prof. Poods. is going all out today.Shes really gettin into it!"LMFAO . im not even mad....im impressed!!!LOL omg like it was so funi just cus she was expecting us to answer these rediculously inapropriate questions.LOL i love uni for this reason. So psych class.amee brought tea again today....but she didnt spill it. THANK GOD. rachel has a fucking black belt and im intimidated.lol. Im gona miss psych. well im takin it again. my dads cousins kid whose my age is coming down to stay while she visits ppl in windsor. n i def work thurs,fri,mon and im pissed.lol.but MONEY MONEY MONEY! so im going to quebec this summer for 6 weeks. most likely for school. im excited but i gota get the scholarship first!!wish me luck.gtg
like no shit. she came and worked for me (cut tomatoes and wash dishes )for like an hour.just cus she rocks. and i didnt go to school today (road conditions were to hazardous for my aging father) lol i just was like its cold.....next week. and my dad was bitching about the roads. so yea. i may be planning like a cros-ontario traintrip. and by that i mean like visit scott and anastasia and whoever else has time.lol.im PUMPEd. like christmas makes me sooo happy.ive been so numb lately.the snow cheered me rite up. but now its cold.lol. ooo well.
let me fall ------------------- It's October again Leaves are coming down One more year's come and gone And nothing's changed at all Wasn't I supposed to be someone Who can face the things that I've been running from...
Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown Let me fall, even if I hit the ground And if I... Cry a little Die a little At least I know I lived, just a little...
I've become much too good at being invincible I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be I refuse to let my life roll all over me...
Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown Let me fall, even if I hit the ground And if I... Cry a little Die a little At least I know I lived, just a little...
I wanna be somebody I, I wanna be somebody I wanna be somebody I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from
Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown Let me fall, even if I hit the ground And if I Cry a little Die a little At least I know I lived...
It's October again Leaves are coming down One more year's come and gone And nothing's changed at all
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